It's officially the starting day of Anime Nebraskon, and less than two hours ago, I found the necklace that I had planned on giving to Veronica for Dexion day (September 6). Well... Today is now, instead, Marluzeku day (November 6) and I get to see my Marmar today.

I've been thinking a lot about Veronica lately. Yesterday (only 2 hours ago) I found the necklace I had planned on giving to her, and I started crying. The sad part about it is that I might see her today at the convention... If I see her there... I'm going to give her the necklace and apologize, just one last time, for being such a jerk to her. She deserves much better than me. Every time I think of her, or I find an item I had been planning on giving to her, I cry because I wish that I hadn't broken up with her over a damn text while I was messing with her hair. God F*ck My Life.

I feel so damn emo, and STFU, yes I am wearing my Zexion wig with my emo glasses and an over-sized shirt I bought at Hot Topic while wearing a pair of swim trunks because I lack boxers (I plan on getting some for Naka-Con if I can go). It's strange how a relationship that I ended months ago still haunts me. I just want to pick up my phone and call her, but then I remember that I deleted her number off my phone two and a half months after breaking up with her. I just want to email her, but then I remember what I said to her over that text. I just want to see her, but I'm so scared that she's still mad at me.
I just want to hug her, but I'm afraid that if I do, I might not be able to let go.

I'm so scared that if I see her at this convention, I won't be able to act the way I should, or say the things I should, or say the things I should when I should say them.

I just hope that I can make it through the day without breaking down in tears at the sight of her.